“Those that go searching for love only make manifest their own lovelessness, and the loveless never find love, only the loving find love, and they never have to seek for it.”
D.H. Lawrence
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“Those that go searching for love only make manifest their own lovelessness, and the loveless never find love, only the loving find love, and they never have to seek for it.”
D.H. Lawrence
Every day, we are faced with questions that force us to make decisions:
Should I stay in my job? Pursue this relationship? Take this risk? Seize that opportunity? Should I turn left or right? Should I go up or down? Let go of that friendship? Should I buy this? Throw that? What should I do? Where should I go? What should I say?
We are often told to follow our heart, our passion, or follow what makes us happy. I have a few other thoughts.
Sometimes, it can be challenging to know what makes us truly happy. Is the happiness gained from achieving or losing something genuine? Or is it temporary? Sometimes, we are still discovering our happiness, as we are still discovering ourselves.
How about, instead, we ask ourselves, “Does this bring me deeper into myself? Or does this take me away from myself?”
How do you feel, when you are inside yourself? How do you feel when you are disconnected from yourself, far from the person you are?
In this realm of the Earthly life experience, our emotions are our navigators. Follow them. They are telling you what resonates and what doesn’t, what serves you and what hurts you, what will help you grow, and what will make you weep. They are bittersweet friends, guiding us deeper into ourselves.
When do you feel calm, centered, empowered, alive, focused, happy, secure, self-loving, and fulfilled?
I feel this way when I am wholly connected to myself. When I live from the authentic nature of my true Self. When I am honoring my wants and needs, my hopes and sorrows. I feel this way when I fully know, beyond the shadow of a doubt, my own power, my own abilities, my role in the play of the cosmos.
In the times that I have felt disconnected from myself, I felt lost, confused, sad, hurt, angry, obsessive, anxious, nervous, unsafe, unstable, and fearful.
We either live inside ourselves or outside ourselves. We can live in strength or fear, love or grief. We cannot have both at once.
Does this opportunity make you feel alive or hesitant? Does this friendship make you feel energized or exhausted? Does this relationship give you clarity or confusion? Do you feel more enthralled by the right or left path? Will this decision bring you closer into yourself, or will it take you outside of yourself?
What could be more important in this world than You, than residing in your own sacred Self?
You know the answer.
Blessed we are
To dance on this ground
With the rhythm of saints
To carry the sound
A prayer for the Earth
And those yet to come
May you walk in beauty
And remember your song
Remember why you came here
Remember your life is sacred
My heart opens into a smile.
With only a thought,
I experience the warmth of a summer day.
I am loved.
I am loved.
I am loved.
I am so dearly loved.
I wrote these questions this morning as a testament to my commitment to continue my personal growth and spiritual development. They are birthed out of a yearning to realize my full potential Self in this lifetime. Reading these daily, regularly, and consistently will focus the mind to seek the answers to these questions both within and without. Energy flows where attention goes. What we focus on will become the highlight of our conscious experience. It’s time to focus on self-fulfillment, self-discovery, and self-realization! This so that we may then best serve the divine, the world, and everyone in it.
With love,
Sru
Tonight, I surrender to what is.
I surrender to the flow of life. I accept how things are. I lay aside my own will and desires based in a limited perspective for the knowing of the highest part of me: everything is always happening as it should, regardless of whether it appears that way or not. *Praise love for this moment in its perfection.
*The last line is taken from the Isha System by spiritual teacher Isha Judd
Creator of all that is, thank you for gifting me with this day.
I resolve to use this day to further my evolution in body, mind, and spirit.
Today, I choose to surrender to the flow of life and align my thoughts, desires, and actions with my higher self.
Teach me to live in humility this day, and to increase my love towards myself and others.
Help me to clear my mind of any thoughts that are not aligned with your truth.
Guide me to see the gifts in every event and circumstance.
In every moment, lead me to higher wisdom and deeper knowing.
Support me in cultivating love and tranquility within the garden of my being.
Amen.
Wisdom in this post: Approve of yourself enough to not seek out the approval of others. Your negative thoughts and beliefs are generally not from you and do not belong to you. You are valuable and worthy as you are, in this moment, and you do not need to do anything to prove your worth or value. Move into an intention to love yourself over, and over, and over again.
I’m going to use this topic as a platform to explore self-love more deeply, and share how I’ve been embodying this in my own life. I am am only a humble traveler on the path to self-realization and have by no means mastered these ideas. I am, however, getting there.
Recently I had an interesting experience at an interview. I had two rounds of interviews with two different interviewers. Before each interview, I reminded myself that I am not here to seek the approval of this organization or my interviewers. I am here to present myself as I am. I am valuable and worthy as I am and I do not need to do anything to prove my worth or value. I told myself that no matter the outcome – I will love myself. The universe works in mysterious ways, divine order will always prevail, and at the end of the day – I will end up at the best place for me. There are no accidents.
The first round went very well. I had a great rapport with my interviewer and I had a good feeling throughout. I felt content with my responses to the questions posed and was fully present. The second round, however, felt a bit more challenging. The questions posed weren’t difficult, but I noticed self-doubt creeping in. I questioned whether I was connecting with my interviewer, and whether what I was saying made any sense to her. Suddenly, my energy was split (unconsciously) to both portraying my true authentic self, while also reading my interviewer’s mood. Soon, I started experiencing waves of boredom, and I’m not sure whether that boredom I was picking up belonged to me or my interviewer. I feel that it was most likely my own, because I was just repeating most of what I just mentioned to my previous interviewer a few moments ago, but a part of me felt concerned that I was making my interviewer bored too. Suddenly, my mind blanked mid-sentence. I shared this much, and recollected my thoughts soon after. I also found myself admiring my interviewer and being inspired by her – she even gave me generous words of advice for my future and seemed to indirectly praise my intrinsic drive to continually evolve. Before we parted, she advised me to pick the opportunity that makes me most happy (which I have no idea if this had any undertone of “I like you” or “I hope you have other places to choose from”). Overall, I left the interview feeling ambivalent about how it went.
I shared my honest thoughts with a family member – that I couldn’t really gauge how the second interview went but I think it went okay overall. My family member then assumed that I had done poorly in my second interview, when the truth was that I had done okay, and I was just unsure of how my interviewer felt. Interviews are difficult because we want to feel liked and appreciated by our interviewer. It can be challenging to subdue this, very normal, urge and show up in our full authenticity, just enjoying the moment. I tried my best, and truly it shouldn’t matter whether or not my interviewer likes me or not. Some people like us, some people don’t. Some people have the capacity to see our true value but some people don’t. And life is sometimes just a weird, random, conglomerate of inexplicable events strung together by series of moments. My family member regretted not helping me prior to my interview, as then I apparently would have performed better. I proceeded to begin feeling anxiety and regret around my interview. “Oh dear, it did go poorly didn’t it? I screwed up again didn’t I? If only I practiced more! If only I took this more seriously. Why didn’t I prepare more?” Suddenly thoughts of fear and regret overtook me.
After a day or so of cycling the past in my mind – while completely distorting my memory of the experience, I had a moment of realization. Why am I so afraid of the outcome? Didn’t I tell myself that there is divine order and no matter what happens, I will love myself regardless? Why am I being so hard on myself? I looked at the content and quality of my thoughts and realized that these weren’t mine! I picked these up from my anxious family member! As my mentor B. Logue notes, these thoughts, feelings and beliefs weren’t from me and do not belong to me! This realization freed me of them. I smiled, and they were gone. And I again, re-set my intention to love myself. I know that I am capable and worthy. Likely much, much more than I give myself credit for at the moment. Now I get to relax and wait to see how things unfold. It can be hard to trust in uncertain times but trust we must. This time, I choose to trust in myself.
I still have no idea how my second interview went, but I don’t care anymore. I’ll end up in a great place regardless. I believe in myself and in life. In my past few decades of life, each year has been an adventure in growth, self-discovery, insight, and great gifts. Why would the coming year be any different? In fact, I am working hard to make each passing year better than the last, and to become a better version of myself each passing day. No matter where I end up, I will feel grateful to be there, and make the most of my experience. There are no accidents. There can no wrong choice, or path, or step for me. Only another adventure waiting to happen.
I choose to love myself no matter what. As new and foreign as the concept of self-love may feel, I am committed to learning and living it.
Wherever I belong, let me end up there.
Wherever I will learn the most, let me end up there.
Wherever I will feel closest to you, let me end up there.
Wherever I feel the most joy, let me end up there.
Wherever I am most peaceful, let me end up there.
Now to dedicate a song to my Self.
I discovered Praful yesterday by accident, and this piece is pure ecstasy.
“I Saw You
and became silent
no words to say
nobody left to speak
I Saw You
and became empty
this emptiness
more beautiful than existence
Comes a Time
when nothing is meaningful
except
surrendering to Love.”
– Praful Mystik
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Update: The interview was a success. I got the job.
Indigenous traditions refer to the “red road” as the path of the Great Spirit, the unifying force of all of life. There is no doubt that this Universe has been intelligently designed. The intelligence in a single cell – of parts that fuel it, parts that heal it, and parts that allow it to contribute to its environment, surpasses random chance. The organization of atoms, the micro- which serves as a holographic-fractal of the macro-, is not random. The argument that existence is characterized devoid of meaning, purpose, and intelligent order is meaningless in itself. There is nothing that is meaningless. This is particularly true with the human experience. The grandest mystery concerning mankind is the mystery of himself. Who am I? What am I doing here? Where am I to go? What is my experience? And above all – why? Why is my experience?
When we are young, we are filled with such questions. Exploring the world around us while attempting to understand ourselves and the mysterious world we inhabit. As we evolve, from childhood to adolescence, so does our perception. Our view is no longer table-height, our reach surpasses our parent’s waist, and our mind, open or closed, in proportion to the amount of light within us that we have refused to allow be extinguished.
In addition to 7.5 billion lives on Earth today, there are 7.5 billion realities. Each reality is characterized by its own perspective, belief system, emotional charge, set of experiences, and personality.
The longing to come home – I was 19 when I first felt it. I was mired in a profound depth of sadness, agony, and frustration at the world’s expectations towards me – who I must be, who I must become, and what I must accomplish. Then the tears came, the yearning for freedom, for liberation from the matrix of accepting the world’s demands while rejecting myself. There is nothing more painful, I have found in my personal experience, than separation from one’s own Self. There are 7.5 billion individuals, all seeking themselves. A few who may have uncovered the truth. But the majority is still immersed in the dance of life. Every movement or lack thereof, impacts another. Every thought impacts everything in existence.
These are profound truths. The awakened know this. They know how powerful they truly are – with every aspect of their being – they have the power to shape life itself. The intelligence that has created all of existence, created us too. And we too, coming from an intelligent creator, have precisely those same attributes of our source. The unified oneness , the-all-that-had-ever-existed, had only itself, and it is itself that it molded to an infinite number of forms, in part, to re-discover itself and its own magnificence.
The key to self-discovery is the growth of awareness. The greater the awareness, the greater the power to create – to think, move, and execute with pure intention, presence, and consciousness. All the creative life-force is then concentrated with a grand intensity, then shifting from within to without (which really is also within, but we perceive it as without). Just as the great oneness had done when creating, so do we too create in exactly the same way. We are the grand masters, we have only to re-discover these truths. The evidence surrounds us in every moment. You need only notice the immense creations all around us – buildings, families, institutions. We have been masterful creators all along, completely ignorant of this fact. The life that you live, the way that it looks today, it is so because you have created it so, knowingly or unknowingly. Within each of us, lives an agent of separation – more commonly known as the Ego. The shadow aspect of our intelligent life-form. It’s purpose being to resist this re-discovery – just enough to make the game fun, interesting and manageable but not impossible. Herein lies the hero’s journey. In overcoming the illusions, false truths, and false perceptions, veil after veil falls away to reveal the ultimate truth.
Who are you to be so great? The ego asks.
Who are you to think that you are a creator, a powerful being? The ego muses.
What of all of those times that you’ve been wronged by others and by life itself – will you just pretend that none of that matters? The ego questions.
The truth is, that it doesn’t matter. We are on a canvas, and we get to paint the picture we desire. We may have had certain experiences, to integrate certain teachings into our beings – perhaps regarding forgiveness, self-acceptance, self-love, humility, serving others, compassion, generosity, gratitude. Whatever the concept may be, it is only there for our ultimate evolution. We are pendulums, swinging towards the center, and after perhaps a few hundred million lifetimes, we may eventually reach the center. The wiser and more calmer we become – the the more centered we become, and ultimately we will find ourselves entirely still, in the absolute center.
The red road is this journey to the center of ourselves. Everyone is on it already. But not everyone is aware. Not everyone is conscious of the meaning and impact of their journey – both upon themselves, on others, and on this Earth. The difference is simply that in being aware, life tastes more fuller, more thrilling, more vibrant and more fulfilling. To live a life that is fulfilling, is to live in conscious awareness. Because it is only then are we truly accessing our innate potential, our powerful abilities, our gifts and talents. And it is only then that we become masterful creators on the canvas of life. As you become a masterful creator on the canvas of your life, join me into the depths of the most profound aspects of our world and of our lives. I look forward to sharing deeply spiritual insights, heart-warming stories, art, music, food, and wisdom – all designed for the purpose of sparking a deeper curiosity of the Self, of Truth, and all that is hidden beyond the veil of appearances.
As one of my favorite spiritual mentors, Tina Turner, would say – “Go inside of you, true values you’ll find, beyond, beyond.”